Will we ever get there?

Late last night we learned that China has added yet another step to the already grueling process of forming a family. This new rule is effective immediately and does affect us. Now parents of waiting children will be receiving an "acceptance letter", much like the one NSN (non-special needs) families receive. Once this letter has been signed and returned to China then it will be an approximately another 6-7 weeks until travel approval is received. This adds 2 MORE months to our journey.

We're not even DTC yet, so that light at the end of the tunnel feels like it has been blocked by a boulder right now. Not sure why, but as I type that, Mary Magdalene going to the tomb of our Savior comes to mind.

"Early on the first day of the week, while it was still dark, Mary Magdalene went to the tomb and saw that the stone had been removed from the entrance." John 20:1

I know Jesus is in total control of all of this. If this is placed here by Satan to fill us with fear and angst, then I need to use it somehow to glorify God. But, d0g-gone-it, it is so hard to do when you think that you are almost close enough to believing that it will happen and you suddenly get blown back by a huge gust.

We first laid eyes on our precious angel when she was 17 months old. With these delays, she'll now be over 30 months old when we first hold her. I just don't understand why it has to be so hard, so complicated?

My heart is hurting for Anna Grace who will continue to spend cold nights without proper nutrition and the love of our family. And it hurts for our family who has once again been "put on hold" until that missing link, our daughter waiting in Hefei, makes it complete.

Please, keep us in your prayers. I am very discouraged right now.