Monday, April 30, 2007

Up...up...and awaaaaay!

Yep, our LOA has been signed, copied, kissed, sealed and its on its way back toour agency! Being that CCAA is closed this week, we sent it 2 day, so it should arrive on Wednesday. Heritage will then turn it around and send it back to CCAA so they could have it first thing when they reopen after the holidays. Then it's just a matter of (hopefully!!) 2 weeks before we get TA (travel approval). I am still pretty in shock. REALITY IS HITTING! We are going to be the proud parents of THREE babies. Oh my Lord!!! My heart races at the thought. I am sooooooooooo scared. But, I know I could do it. I can't wait to see Anna Grace. I was talking to Scott yesterday about how our Gotcha moment may be like. What will she be wearing? Will she and Kai get along or will there be sibling rivalry from the get-go? Will she grieve alot? How big is she? Will she be quiet and gentle or will she be loud and boisterous like her brothers. What, if any, delays will she have? Soooo many questions fill my mind. Yet, none of them really matter. All that matters is that our Lord & Savior has blessed us once again and we will love and adore her beyond measure. Whatever issues she comes with are part of the package and part of who she is and we will work through them together, as a family.

Kai has been carrying her little picture around and speaks to everyone about his "Annnnnnnnaaa". I know that he has no concept that she is "real" and that she is coming home to intrude on "his" turf, or so he thinks is his. heh. But, he does love his Mei-Mei.

Our friend, April, has offered to take some pictures (and possible video...OMG!!!) of her when she visits the orphanage with her new son, Aiden. I can't wait to see if she has changed any. Although, again, Lord I can't thank you enough for every single month of this wait, since it began, you have provided us with pictures and/or info on our sweet baby. Even down to the last week or two of the wait before we meet her! THANK YOU, JESUS!

On another note, I don't know what's wrong with me. I haven't motivated myself to do anything about packing or getting the necessary stuff we need for the trip. (Rest assured we will not be packing like last time.) Going back to the why...maybe it's because I'm still waiting for the other shoe to drop....or because this time it's a bit easier since we've already been down this road. I don't know. All I know that is that we will be traveling over 16,000 miles in 4-6 weeks and all I do is sit around and daydream about our girl!

Saturday, April 28, 2007

YES!! WE ACCEPT!!

We were out working in the hot sun when the DHL truck pulled up to the house. Since CCAA is closed next week, we weren't expecting the package with our LOA until Monday...but here it was!!! So, both Scott and I and a very excited big brother, Kai, ran out to him (lucky driver didn't get a camera in his face because we were outside already!) and tore the package open! Below is a video clip of the official signing and marking the "WE ACCEPT" box. The translation of the Letter of Seeking Confirmation Form says:

"Based on your application, the following child has been assigned to you. You are kindly requested to give your decision as soon as possible to CCAA through your adoption agency." Then her name is listed below!! HEC YEA! WE ACCEPT!!!! IT'S REALLY HAPPENING!!!


Friday, April 27, 2007

DREAMS DO COME TRUE!!!!!!!!!!!!




Wooohoooo!!!!!! We are beyond excited. Thank you, Jesus!!! You are so faithful in your promises. Both being DTC was right before Chinese New Year, and God pulled it through in record time. Now, our LOA is right before the May holidays in China....and He did it again! WHAT AN AWESOME GOD WE SERVE!

Today at 2:45 p.m., after I had pretty much given up, we got the phone call that Vicki, the IA Director at Heritage was holding OUR LOA!!!! I told you our agency rocks!!

God is so good! After all my whining, and dragging myself to prayer group last night, he showed me AGAIN...HE IS GOD!!!!!!!! DAY 73!!!!! It was probably mailed out from China on day 68.

Yikes!! I have so much to do. We hope to get TA my mid May and head to China for Kai & Scott's birthday!!!

Thank you to all of you that held us in your prayers, I know that it is because of those prayers that God answered.

Anna Grace, baby. You're coming home! We love you so much. Hang in there just a little bit longer, sweetie.

Orphans of God

Not sure if you noticed or not, but my blog has changed it a bit. Well, it was accidental. I decided I would explore what the CUSTOMIZE button was for. Oh yea, it warned me that I would lose everything that wasn't on my original template, but I was feeling daring. Needless to say, 4 hours later, I got it back up to some semblance of what it used to be. UGH! What a mission for this blogging newbie.

I was still in "mope mode" tonight when my sister came by to visit the boys. She leads a local prayer group at our church called "Jacob's well". She asked me to attend tonight. My first thought was, "Naaah....I'm not in the mood". But then after some coaxing and realizing that I needed SOMETHING, I decided to go.

I'm so glad I did. The Lord truly quenched my thirst at the "well" tonight. God always gives me that "kick in the butt" to make me realize that life doesn't revolve around what I want all the time. Yes, I desperately wanted that phone call today, but I needed Him more than anything else. It was a very powerful night. I walked away feeling Spirit filled and so thankful for all of the blessings that I do have.

In closing, a beautiful song was played. One I had never heard. It's called ORPHANS OF GOD by Avalon. I will leave you with the lyrics, but please, take a moment and scroll down to the bottom of the page to listen to the song and watch the video.

I know that our precious angel waiting in China is being watched over by our Lord and His blessed Mother. She is protected and loved. God has kept his promise and through this song reminded me that indeed "there are no orphans of God". "I will not leave you as orphans; I will come to you." - John 14:18

Orphans of God

Who here among us
Has not been broken
Who here among us
Is without guilt or pain
So oft' abandoned
By our transgressions
If such a thing as grace exists
Then grace was made for lives like this

(CHORUS)
There are no strangers
There are no outcasts
There are no orphans of God
So many fallen
But, Hallelujah
There are no orphans of God

Come the unwanted
And find affection
Come all ye weary
Come and lay down your head
Come ye unworthy
You are my brother
If such a thing as grace exists
Then grace was made for lives like this

(CHORUS)
There are no strangers
There are no outcasts
There are no orphans of God
So many fallen
But, Hallelujah
There are no orphans of God

Oh Blessed Father
Look down upon us
We are your children
We need your love
We're out before
Your throne of mercy
And seek your face
To rise above

(CHORUS)

No matter where I go or who I meet,
I find we as human beings are all the same.
We all want to be loved and accepted no matter what.
Only God, our father is truly capable of that kind of love all the time.
What comfort we can find in knowing that we are all
His children no matter where we come from or what we've done.

Thursday, April 26, 2007

A simple gift


This amazing organization was there for us while we were revieweing Anna Grace's medical. Our doctor wanted further information and they were able to provide us with that.

A few weeks ago, our son's orpahange yahoo group received word that his orphanage had cleft babies starving to death because they did not have cleft bottles. We contacted
Love Without Boundaries, and within days, a case of cleft bottles with instructions was delievered to the orphanage. Every cent donated to this organization goes to assisting the orphans in China. There are worldwide volunteers working for LWB whose love for these children have allowed this organization to blossom into what it is today.

My lifelong dream would be to one day be able to go to their medical page and just click, click, click and pay for every single one of those babies needing life saving surgeries.

If we lived in a perfect world, each child would have a forever family and there wouldn't be any orphanages. But since that is not a reality, would you please consider sponsoring one of these beautiful children who may never know what a real family is like....or making a one time donation? God will bless you tenfold, and the joy that you will bring to a child, the change you will make in his or her life, will be something that could never be repaid. Your gift, whatever size, could make the difference of whether a child lives or dies.

"It has become more and more clear to all of us at Love Without Boundaries that we have a clear mission: to heal children and to let them know love. Adoption to us is the ultimate joy, because every child deserves a family. But for those who have special needs that may delay adoption or even make it impossible to find a forever family, we believe that foster care is the answer. We believe every child on this earth deserves to know what it is like to belong."

- Love Without Boundaries.

If you aren't financially able to assist, can you please pray for these babies and children....especially the ones left behind. Thank you and God bless!

Wednesday, April 25, 2007

Things that make you go...HMMMM!



YOUR AGE BY DINER & RESTAURANT MATH

This is pretty neat. It takes less than a minute. Work this out as you read. Be sure you don't read the bottom until you've worked it out!

1. First of all, pick the number of times a week that you would like to go out to eat.
(more than once but less than 10)

2. Multiply this number by 2 (just to be bold)

3. Add 5

4. Multiply it by 50


5. If you have already had your birthday this year add 1757 ....If you haven't, add 1756.

6. Now subtract the four digit year that you were born.



You should have a three digit number now.


The first digit of this was your original number

(I.e., how! Many times you want to go out to restaurants in a week.)
The next two numbers are YOUR AGE! (Oh YES, it is!!!!!)

Cool, huh? This is what I've been doing with my time while I sit here waiting for the phone to ring. I know. Sad.

Tuesday, April 24, 2007

God DOES answer prayers!!!!!

First, let me say a huge thank you to all of the prayer warriors who joined in and stormed the gates of Heaven with their prayers. Do you remember when I asked for special prayer requests for Shelley? If not.....click here.

God knew her heart and answered her prayers. Here is the email I just received from her:

"So here it is, without further adieu, we got the call today, WE ARE TOTALLY APPROVED TO CONTINUE OUR ADOPTION WITH CHINA……………. Thank you so much for all of the prayers, I know that there were many. I’m still numb, but feel as though I took a million tranquilizers……..

As for which group we will be in, who cares………………… once I thought I would, and there still may be a chance to remain with our group, so we will just have to see….. MY LOVE TO YOU ALL FOR KEEPING UP THE PRAYERS……….THEY TOTALLY WORKED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"

God is so good! Just when you start thinking He's on vacation....He shows us He's hard at work! Thank you, Jesus!!!!!!!!

Pffftttt....dreams!

Well, it is quite obvious, from the lack of screams heard across the nation, that we did not receive that much awaited phone call. So much for counting on my dreams, unless of course it was MAILED OUT on day 68. Ahhh..yes, the eternal optimist.

Actually, I'm pretty bummed, but am ok with it. I guess I have no choice. I am still hoping that it arrive sometime this week, but with a few TAs coming in yesterday, I don't think LOAs will arrive at all this week.

What does this all mean? Well, if we get it towards the end of the week after the May holidays, we're looking for it to then arrive somewhere around May 10th or 11th. Then we have to wait for TA, which is taking about 21 days to arrive, and then we should expect to leave probably the week after that. So, we're hoping for the 1st or 2nd week in June now till we hold our baby girl. At this rate, it feels like she's never gonna be home. ::SIGH::

Monday, April 23, 2007

Who's Counting?

Well, day 68 was really yesterday, Sunday, but since I know packages weren't going to be delivered yesterday, today is the day. Again, chances are so improbable that we will hear from our agency on only day 68 (69) but, I keep telling myself that NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE WITH GOD!

It has been a waaaaay hectic past few days. Starting with Thursday night. My sister, Kai and I had the pleasure of having dinner with a family that has not one...but TWO beautiful Hefei girls! Alanna & her sister, Leah, were the sweetest things.

Kai and I arrived first, and when Jodi walked in with her kids, Kai immediately went up to little Leah, who was so sweet with him and cuddled up right to her. Definitely a ladies' man! As we were being led to the table, he turned and grabbed her hand and they both walked hand in hand to the table. Just too cute! I am praying he reacts the same with Anna Grace. We'll see!

Our Kai had not napped and was NON-STOP energy at the restaurant. My sister was my saving grace. She kept him entertained so that the girls' Mama and I could chit-chat a bit. Jodi, thanks for meeting up with us. We really enjoyed spending some time with your beautiful girls and your handsome son. It's great to know that Anna Grace will have Hefei sisters close by. :) Both Ily and I left there sighing and thinking...."now we REALLY we want our little girls".

Here are some pictures of that evening.







For now, I am going to be hanging out next to the phone hoping that it's a call from our agency. By the way, it doesn't have to be today (according to the rules in my mind), any day this week will make me happier than a pig in mud! Please keep those prayers coming, my friends.

Thursday, April 19, 2007

Our Agency Rocks!!!!!!!

I have been wanting to take a moment to give huge kudos to our agency, the waiting child coordinator, and the Director of International Adoptions at Heritage Adoption Services.

As many of you know, we were very happy with our previous agency and were a bit bummed that we could not petition for a child from their lists when we felt that tugging at our hearts the 2nd time around. When we found Anna Grace, I had never heard of Heritage, but we knew we had to go with wherever our daughter was. Although we were positive Anna Grace was our daughter, when it came to the agency, I was preparing myself for disappointment.

Well, I can't sing their praises enough. I have yet to encounter anyone who has had a negative experience with them. They respond to emails and phone calls very efficiently. They are honest about their answers and do not feed into rumors. They give best and worst case scenarios (a biggie for me) and have gone over and beyond when needed (such as the tale of the FedEx package!). Their hearts are truly in it for the children and there are no hidden fees. Their time frames are some of the best that I've seen. And most importantly, their rapport with CCAA is great. They should be very proud. CCAA has named Heritage Adoption Services as one of the 25 top agencies for 2006! That is a huge honor!

I cannot wait to travel to China, obviously to bring our daughter home, but also to experience their incountry staff. I definitely give them two thumbs up because they are truly deserving of it.

Hooray for Heritage Adoption Services and thank you for making my life as easy as it could possibly be amongst the turmoil that comes with international adoptions.

Praise God from whom all good things come!


No, it's not our LOA, but it's a pretty close 2nd! :)


Anna Grace is getting her "FedEx" package! Yes! This morning I received a phone call that her package was released by customs and should be delivered tomorrow. I just felt in my heart that something was going to happen. Every time I tried to let it go....it would always bounce back. I even dragged my feet on putting another package together for our sweet friend, April, to take to her. April, now you can just take lots of love and kisses from her Mama & Baba...and it takes up less room in your luggage. :) We love you!

I am so very happy today! I am going to be spending the next few days dreaming about her foster Mama reading her our letter while Anna Grace snuggles up to her "perfect little dolly", as she munches on her goodies. Now if we could only get our LOA next week, that would just be icing on the cake!

Thank you, Lord. We give you ALL the glory for this!

Wednesday, April 18, 2007

Getting ready for a little girl!


Dreams

It seems like many times throughout my life, God has given me "messages" through my dreams. When we were desperately awaiting some serious test results for Kai after bringing him home, I'd jump at every phone call thinking it was the drs. office. I distinctly remember the Friday before the call having a dream where our priest, of all people, came to me and said, "Ohilda, don't worry. The results are negative, but you won't hear until Monday afternoon." Sure enough....Monday at 4:35 p.m., we received the phone call from his doctor saying all of the tests had come back negative.

Another instance is the night before we received TA for Kai, I had an AMAZING dream! For the first time in 29 months that we had been waiting to adopt, I had awoke with a EUPHORIC feeling!! I dreamed that Scott and I were on the plane to bring Kai home and I kept saying over and over "Oh my God, I can't believe it's finally happening! We're REALLY getting our son!" It was so real I woke up with tears in my eyes and I immediately said to Scott, "TA's are coming!!" Well, that same morning, we got an email from our agency that our TA was on the way!

Now moving on to Anna Grace, on day 35 of the wait, I dreamed that our WC coordinator called and told me that she had our LOA in front of her. I remember saying to her, "Are you sure you're calling Ohilda? We're only on day 35." She then responded with, "I know, I was quite surprised, but yes...your LOA is in my hands!" I woke up and waited all day for the phone to ring....nothing. The next day, in the midst of Kai's speech evaluation, the phone rings. I look at the caller ID and it's our agency. I excuse myself and RUN to the phone and pick it up. The first thing I hear is, "Before you go nuts, I don't have your LOA or your TA. BUT...something did come transcontinental from China for you! You official LID paper." heh!! I had to laugh. After I caught my breath, I thought, "Hey, my dream was pretty close, except for a couple of letters in the acronym."

And lastly, the night after that dream on day 36 (this is the one I am banking on to be a slam dunk!!!), I had another dream. This one, I was at the airport in China and the Chinese lady at the counter said to me in broken English, "You see, you weren't supposed to be receiving your LOA then, it's because you will get it on day 68!" And then she handed me a little yellow card with the number 68 written in bold black writing on it. I woke up and a few minutes later I was counting days on the calendar. That happened on day 36 ( the day before AJ's birthday!)...so day 68 is April 22, my Mom's anniversary. It is a Sunday, but Monday in China! If my dream is right, we should be finding out that our LOA is on it's way or arrived on that date! So, come on number 68!!!!!!!

Tuesday, April 17, 2007

Brokeness


It's not very often that it happens, thank the Lord, but sometimes when life is just too much, I tend to fall apart. I know that's when Jesus REALLY wants us. This morning was one of those tough days. I received ANOTHER call from FedEx, they're still trying to negotitate the delivery of the package. Then, I came to read emails and I had so many prayer requests, many for children. Some who had passed on, others on the brink, and some who have had tragic accidents. I read daily about the issues of so many women dealing with infertility and their desperate wanting of a child to love and nurture, when there are so many abandoned children all over the world. It breaks my heart. Finally, thoughts about the magnitude of the loss of lives in Virginia came flooding in. It got to a point that it truly was too much. The boys were down for their nap and I went into our bedroom and kneeled before the crucifix. I meditated on the passion of our Savior. He gave it all for us, and yet there is so much evil and tragedy in the world. I finally reached a point of "brokeness" and was able to give it all to him. I cried, prayed, pleaded and then just sat in the stillness. Peace filled my heart and I knew the Lord was ever-present with me. He is in control of everything. He allows what happens in this world, because He doesn't want to impose himself on us. He is a true gentleman. He wants our love and our lives more than anything else in the world, yet He doesn't force himself upon us.

When I received that email the other day about prayer being superficial, I think it really was meant to be for me, although it was sent out as a devotional for many people. It spoke to my heart and I was able this morning to go beyond the surface and spend that much needed one-on-one time with Christ. I feel so much better now! I've given it all to him. All of the prayer requests, all of my pain and the pain of those suffering due to the many issues they are facing in their lives. He listens, answers and indeed fixes broken people. Thank you Lord for being in my life and for always letting me feel your love and that I could go to you in moments of despair.

I am so thankful for the friendships that I have made through this journey. I know that you are there for me when I am feeling down in the dumps and am overwhelmed, as I was this morning. I thank you from the bottom of my heart for your support, love and friendships. Your positive thoughts and prayers are definitely felt and your emails give me that lift that keeps me going.

I am getting so anxious as we approach the final days of April and I wait for that elusive LOA. As blessed as we have been to receive so many pictures of our beautiful baby girl, it makes it even harder some times. There are few moments during my day that something doesn't remind me of Anna Grace. I already love her so very much and my heart keeps telling me she needs her Mommy.

Finally feeling peace. Have a blessed day everyone.

Monday, April 16, 2007

Prayers being lifted....

for all of the families and victims of the horrific tragedy that occurred at Virginia Tech today. May the Lord fill the families' hearts with peace knowing that their children, brothers, sisters, fathers and mothers are being held in the arms of our Savior.

There is nothing that could be said that could even try to make any sense of today's events.

Sunday, April 15, 2007

Thoughts and rambles.

It was a wet, rainy day in SW Florida today. But, I loved it. The rain now always reminds me of Kai and I love peering out the window and seeing thousands of raindrops pouring down from the sky. It's calming to me.

A friend sent an email today and had this line in it: "Freedom comes when prayer is no longer superficial." It really made me stop and think. Wow! What a true statement! Many times we pray, or let me clarify that....I pray, and I feel like I'm going thru the motions. But, when my heart is really in it, and the power of the Holy Spirit fills my innermost being, I really do sense that "freedom". What a gift!

I had quite a few email exchanges today with a new "friend" I have made in FedEx. This time, she is the China representative for the courier giant. They are insistent on my sending a copy of my passport to the Chinese custom officials in order to verify that I am indeed who I say I am and that I am the shipper of the package. I tried to let the whole ordeal go, but I received an email (this one directly from China) requesting it. Although I truly want to "let it go", part of me keeps thinking that there is hope and that the original package may yet make it to Anna Grace, but I am so very scared of faxing, of all things, a copy of my passport across the world to truly some unknown person. Scott is really against it and I should learn by now to listen to him. His last words to me this evening when I was pushing for his approval (although it is not something I need, but want) were "Ohilda, do whatever you want!" I guess I will pray on it and see what comes of it. I have dragged my feet in putting the new package together, not sure why. I'm sad the first one didn't make it and maybe I feel in my heart there is still hope. Has anyone out there dealt with FedEx and international shipping? Have you ever had to fax your passport as proof of identification? If so, can you email me privately?

Let's see....what else. Ahhh, I wanted to share that Adam (my middle son) and I went to the movies yesterday. It was nice spending one-on-one time with him. We haven't done that in a long time. Anyways, we saw Perfect Stranger. I absolutely LOVED it! I totally and completely recommend it and am gonna drag Scott to see it with me as soon as I find someone ::hint hint Ayi or PoPo:: to watch the kids for us. Definitely a MUST SEE!

Lastly, I was looking at the calendar. The first week in May is the Labour Day Holiday in China. Therefore, CCAA will be closed and all adoption paperwork will cease for that week. So, what does this mean for us? It means that if we do not receive our LOA in April, we won't be receiving anything until AT LEAST mid May, then add another 3-4 weeks in waiting for our travel approval, we're in mid-June. Then another week or so in making final travel arrangements. We probably won't be in China until the end of June. ::big sigh:: I am trying hard to remain optimistic that we will receive our LOA in April (which is possible, because others have received it around day 75) which makes it the 29th of April. Oh dear Lord, PLEASE let it be your will that we receive our LOA in April. PLLEEEEEEAAASE!!!!!!



Friday, April 13, 2007

Looking at the good...and the bad.

A friend suggested I call FedEx to find out if we can get the box back. Well, I did, and of course, they said...."Sure! For another $75.00!!" UGH! So, we've decided that they can keep the box and do whatever with it.

On a happier note, God always provides. During the process of Anna Grace's adoption, I met (online) a wonderful family who I think you've heard me mention that they are adopting an adorable little guy from the same SWI that Anna Grace is in. I fell head over heels for this little guy when we first started looking at waiting child list, but he was a bit older than we were planning to adopt. I have been praying for him for so long and now he will be going home really soon to the best Mama and Daddy that God could find and I know he will be smothered in endless love.

I have totally digressed from why I said that "God always provides". It's because April, Aiden's Mama, has offered to take a new birthday package for us when she travels in 3-4 weeks. I can't thank her enough for in fact, putting a smile on our sweeties face. Friends really are "Angels on Earth!" Thank you so very much, April! MMMWAAAHHH!!!!!!! You are a real friend.

Lastly, I just have to share this morning's conversation with Scott. My sweet husband, who can't stand seeing me so depressed, said to me today, "Honey, look at it this way. God had a reason for that box not getting to Anna Grace. You never know, maybe the customs officials decided to throw out the entire box and while it was sitting in a big garbage hopper in the back of the building, some poor Chinese man who was cleaning the alley noticed the box. He then opened it up and found there were goodies and a dolly inside. He was so excited that he dropped everything and rushed home to find a sweet little girl sitting in his living room. This little girl has never had a dolly and she has never tasted a cookie. Her Baba joyfully gave it to her and said, "Look what God sent from Heaven just for you!" Just think, not only did you do God's will by providing a child with gifts she may never have received, but you made a little girl in China very, very happy, honey!"

So, Babe, you are absolutely right! Thank you for letting me see another side to the story. You are an amazing husband and I am praying that you are right. Now, with a smile in my heart that we did something good for a complete stranger, I will go make your boys' lunch and be thankful that we are blessed enough to shower our Anna Grace with many goodies and dollys when she comes home! I love you!

So sad!

This morning I awoke and saw that my package is still at the customs office. I am so sad. After speaking to the FedEx office again, I was told that they now want a copy of my passport. For some reason, at this point, I am uncomfortable doing this. I just don't understand why a small family album, a doll, and some cookies and candy would be such a big deal going to a little girl in an orphanage.

I know Anna Grace has no idea that it was even on the way, but I feel so helpless. It sucks. I was hoping that the contents of the package would make her feel loved and put a smile on her face, instead. it's made the wait even harder for me and she got nothing. Not to mention the money spent and lost!

Thursday, April 12, 2007

What's happening?

See this FedEx plane? Well, Anna Grace's package is NOT on it. Nope. As of 9 am this morning, it still sits in customs somewhere at the Shanghai airport. ::SIGH:: I made my morning phone call to FedEx, and they said that my last letter was translated to Chinese and sent to customs yesterday morning. We are in a "wait" mode. That's what I was told. I did ask if there was a possibility that they would just decide not to release it, and the girl told me that it is unlikely that they'd do that at this point. She said usually when they don't release packages, we are notified immediately. So, for now, I have to wait until at least midnight (12 pm China time) to see if the package has moved anywhere.

On a good note! I received Kai's passport! Yaaaayyy!!!!! Now we can send in for our visas. I'm almost wanting to wait until we get our LOA to do so, since we will have at least 4 weeks between LOA and actual travel.

Speaking of travel, not sure if I mentioned this before or not, but I've not done 1 stitch of packing. I haven't made any lists, nor have I bought anything for the actual trip. I know it will be mayhem when we get our LOA, but at least it will make time fly and keep my mind off of the fact that indeed we WILL be getting our precious angel!

That's it for now. It's been a looooong, quiet week with the just the boys and I all day since Amanda is gone for spring break. I can't wait till she gets home tomorrow night. Gosh, do I miss that girl!

Wednesday, April 11, 2007

Perspective...thank you, Lord!

Have you ever woken up in the morning and just known that it was going to be a good day? Well, this morning was one of those. It just felt different. Nothing in particular has changed. Nope....my package is still sitting somewhere at the airport in Chinese customs office and who knows if it will ever be delivered, and the days are still crawling by. BUT....God, AS ALWAYS, shows me when I forget to lean on Him, that HE IS GOD! Plain and simple.

As you all have read, the past 2 days I have been relishing in my big pity party. Feeling sorry for myself that I am only on day 50 something of the wait, angry and upset that we sent Anna Grace's package and it has been held up (not to mention the exhorbitant amount of $ it cost to FedEx it), Kai's passport was delayed because of inempt employees....well, you get the picture.

This morning as I was reading my emails, I received an email from someone who I had apparently told I was going to send a fabric square and wish to, and I thought I had. I obviously didn't because she was asking about it. So, I write back, apologize and tell her that it's going to be in the mail today. That's it. I thought it was over.

A little while later, I come back to the computer and there is another email from this same person. She had gone to my website and seen what God had done in our lives and how we had been blessed with not only Kai, but had AJ sent down from the Heaven's without even seeking a newborn baby. The reason she sent the second email was because she was telling me she just found out about a situation she is in that may prevent her from adopting from China (she's already cleared the review room). The decision right now lays in the hands of CCAA, and she is anxiously awaiting an answer. She doesn't have any children, and has been dreaming her whole life of being a Mother.

Why am I writing all this? For two reasons, first to thank God for putting things in perspective for me. My problems are so diminished when I hear about the heartache that others are dealing with. I have been blessed to overflowing and even when the times were tough, the Lord carried me through it and when His will was done, as in losing lots of money and our first referral from Belarus, it was for the best, and for His glory. Thank you, Jesus!

The second reason is because I want to ask the wonderful prayer warriors that read my blog, to please pray for this person and her situation. I know there are hundreds of thousands of different circumstances out there of mothers wanting babies, but I also know that it is not a coincidence that this was the only fabric square that didn't make it, and it is also not a coincidence that this woman read my blog NOW for the first time, while she awaits a decision, a life altering decision to be made. Her name is not necessary because the Lord knows who she is, and knows the desires of her heart. Please friends, storm the Heavens with this request. I don't think I've ever used my blog to ask for prayer requests for anyone other than for our needs, but I feel so strongly that the Lord is urging me to do so.

S.

Firmly believe that the decision is NOT in the hands of the CCAA, the decision is in the hands of our Lord & Savior, and He already knows the answer. Matthew 21:22 tells us that "if you believe, you will receive whatever you ask for in prayer". Please believe with all of your heart and soul that your baby is waiting for you in China and allow God to do the work. God bless you!


Tuesday, April 10, 2007

HOLY GUACAMOLE!!!!!!!!!


I am so frustrated! After, clicking on the refresh buttons 100x today on the FedEx website and still getting the CLEARANCE DELAY message, I decided to call them. The lady was very kind and said, "Aaahh....someone should have called you." Seems that line is the story of my life. I always seem to do the chasing around.

Anyways, bear with my ranting, please. They now wanted ANOTHER letter, which I have drawn up that stated the following:

To Whom It May Concern:

Please be advised that this package is a gift that is unsolicited, Idiots. None of the contents in this package is for resale and is solely to be used for personal use by the recipient, which happens to be my daughter whose birthday was 3 freaking days ago. Yet she didn't have a gift to open because of your need to simulate power.

Your expediting of this package, which you’ve held up for no reason because of cookies and a darn doll, is sincerely appreciated.

Respectfully,
OB

Needless to say, the wording in red was omitted, but definitely thought. Tomorrow is another day.

Something to make me smile!


Monday, April 09, 2007

Trying hard not to sink!

Tonight, my disposition has plummeted with a voice mail I received. You see, on Thursday, we spent big bucks on sending Anna Grace a birthday package. Our wonderful USPS could not guarantee me shipment, but my heart was set on her receiving a package from us for her birthday so we decided to send it FedEx Priority. She was to have received it tomorrow, the 10th. Besides the goodies that you see in the picture, we also had included (and most important to me) two letters; one to her, and one for her foster parents explaining that we were sending another little album with the translations of who was who in the family. I was so excited to see the words DELIVERED on my FedEx tracking page. Instead, this is what I got:

The following shipment has encountered international clearance delays:
Tracking number:
855XXXXXXXXXXX
Ship (P/U) date: Apr 6, 2007
Estimated delivery: Apr 10, 2007
Service type: FedEx International Priority
Packaging type: Your Packaging
Number of pieces: 1


Apparently it has been held up in customs. The message I received asked me to fax an invoice declaring all of the items in the package. I did this early this morning, but the box is still stuck in customs. I am so sad. My poor little girl (and yes, I know she probably doesn't know otherwise) probably did nothing for her birthday.

Two wonderful friends received their LOA today. While I am THRILLED for them, they are on day 110 - ONE HUNDRED TEN! And now they have to wait for travel approval. Just the thought that we are only on day 55 makes me sick to my stomach. I'm really trying to hang on tight to the belief that God's plan is perfect and that it will all happen in His time, but it's just one of those days that seem like there's no end to this rollercoaster ride. I want to get off already!!

All I want is to hold my baby girl and show her how much she is loved. Every passing day is one more day in her life that we spend without her, and I know I have no control over it, but I don't know how much longer I can try to keep my spirits up.

At first, the countdown was adventuresome, now it's starting to really irk me. We've been really busy the past few weeks. Things around home are starting to die down. It is spring break here and Amanda is gone with her grandmother (on her Dad's side) for a week. I miss her terribly. We're pretty broke so I can't shop and there is nothing to really take my mind off of this horrendous wait. Every time I turn around I read something new about the wait in China. Yes, the NSN families are having to endure a HORRIFIC wait, but they have not seen their child's face yet. Trust me, I've been on both sides of the coin, and once you have a little face staring back a you, a real person waiting for you, the wait gets much tougher.

I know I'm just babbling at this point, so if you've gotten this far in reading this, I commend you. I just want her to know she is so very loved and wanted and again, I want my baby girl.....NOW!!!!!!

Below are the pictures of the package and its contents.



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Sunday, April 08, 2007

A shower of birthday wishes!

It has been an a wonderful, but exhausting weekend! I really tried to get on here last night, but the thought of having to download pictures and recap the day was more than my fried brain could handle. So, I am gonna be a bit behind, but I will slowly recap them all in a few different posts over the next couple of days.

The day yesterday started off with the Easter egg hunt! TOOOOOOO cute!!! BUT...that will be in tomorrow's post about Easter. Sorry guys!

After the egg hunt we headed to the Anna Grace's Birthday Shower. I was so thrilled to see many friends and family there! Some even traveled from the east coast! THANK YOU!!!!!!!! Our sweetie was not showered but "drenched" in such beautiful gifts and loving warm wishes. Her closet is now overflowing with adorable dresses, cute outfits, socks, shoes, sandals, Dora sippy cups, a cool potty seat, booster seat and so much more!!!

A HUGE thank you to my Mom & sister, Ily, for all of their hard work. It was beautiful! The room was decorated with a Chinese flair and lots of ballons. The cake was gorgeous with an Anna Grace collage on it, and on the cake table was a picture of our princess! We also showed a video (shown at the bottom of the post) that I made of Anna Grace and some of the pictures from way back to the present, that I've received of her. It was an amazing day and one that we plan on sharing with her when she is home, so that she can see how much she was loved and wanted, even before we ever held her. Again, a huge thank you to all of you that joined us in celebrating our sweetheart's 2nd birthday!

Enjoy the pictures and remember to click the red "x" to shut off the background music while watching the video. If the video does not load for you, you can go directly to Google to watch it, by clicking HERE.





Saturday, April 07, 2007

HAPPY 2nd BIRTHDAY, SWEET ANGEL!!!!!!!!


HAPPY BIRTHDAY, BABY GIRL!!!!!!!!
We love you so very much and are sending you kisses in the wind and praying that your little heart feel every ounce of love we have for you! We miss you so very much and it won't be much longer before we are holding you and smothering that adorable face with lots of smooches!

Today, Holy Saturday, is Anna Grace's 2nd birthday; the last one she will spend alone. It is a very busy day in the Bombardier household as the boys are going to their first Easter egg hunt and then my wonderful Mom and sister have put together a lovely birthday/shower celebration of Anna Grace's second birthday!! We are so grateful and excited that our little girl, although no one has actually met her, is so incredibly loved! I will post details and pictures later tonight. I ask all of my wonderful prayer warriors to please take a moment and say a quick prayer for our little one who is so far away from her Mama and Baba.

Lord Jesus,

On this Holy Day, I lift up our beautiful baby to you. Lord, I know your plan is perfect and your timing for us to hold her will be when you are ready and what is best for all of us. I ask you Lord to protect her, watch over her, and most of all, allow her to feel true love from those surrounding her so that she knows what it is liked to be loved, and also to return that love.

Lord, we give you all the honor and praise on this day of celebration of Feng Qin's birth, and also want to give thanks to her birthmother for having given her the gift of life. Lord, please fill her birthmother's heart with the peace and knowledge that you have taken this little sparrow into your hands and that you will soon be providing her with a home filled with love, caring and most of all, parents who will teach her to adore and worship you.

We pray this, as we pray all things,

In Your Blessed Name.

AMEN!

Thursday, April 05, 2007

Swinging Away

I think I had mentioned that Kai & AJ's Ayi & Po-Po had gotten them swings for the backyard. Well, thanks to Emily (AnnaClaire's Jie-Jie) for giving us the idea, Scott set up their swings in between some big pine trees we have in the backyard. The boys love going out there and swinging! AJ thinks it's a new method of going to sleep and Kai loves just saying over and over "UP! UP!", his version of "higher".

Here are some pictures of the little guys swinging away and a couple in front of our blooming bougainvillea tree.













God's gift!

Wow! For the record, I am inputting this paragraph now, AFTER I finished writing this long post. I think the Lord really wanted me to write all this for me. It has sparked the fire in my heart (which I needed badly) and I can’t even describe now my feelings for the awesomeness of our God.

Lord, I worship and I glorify you. Thank you for being in my life, thank you for allowing me to know you, thank you for using me to do your work and be your hands and feet, thank you for giving me the grace to praise you in good times and in bad, but most of all, thank you for dying on that cross and not wanting anything back from me, but my total devotion to you, which you have. You are OUR God and we CHOOSE to serve and honor you ALWAYS!

To my readers….here is where my post originally began:

I wanted to write today about the amazing week we are in. Not because we just went through AJ’s birthday, and not because of Kai’s 1st Forever Family Day, but because we are in the midst of Holy Week. This week is my favorite time of year. There is no more inspiring feeling in the world, than knowing that our Savior, our Lord, the King of Kings, gave His life for us…for you and me, and the fact that we do not have to do anything to get to Heaven. The fact that we cannot "earn" our way there, is just…well, amazing huh? The nails that he took gave us that entry pass into His kingdom. All we need to do is two very simple things. His word tell us that “if you confess with your mouth that Jesus is Lord and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved.” – Romans 10:9

I was reading a friends’ blog tonight and it got me thinking about the transformation that my children are going through, both AJ & Kai, from the lives they may have had. I’ve thought about all of the gifts they’ve received this past year, material gifts and others. Yes, you’d think the most important one would be the gift of a forever family….but it’s not. The most amazing gift they have received is the gift of being able to get to know Jesus Christ, who died and rose for THEM, on a personal level.

I know I’ve said this 1,000 times, but I am so honored that I have again, been entrusted to raise two, soon three, of God’s creations in His name; that the Lord has given me the privilege of introducing Him to my beautiful babies. I pray more than anything in the world that they do develop that personal relationship with God….with God the Father, the Son & the Holy Spirit. I pray this very special Holy Week as we reflect on the Lord’s passion and His resurrection that they realize the sacrifice that God the Father did for them. He loved us so very much that He gave His only begotten Son, so that we could have eternal life. WOW! How do you repay that? You don’t. Jesus did that for us on the cross.



If you can, take a moment to listen to the song on the blog now. It’s called THIS MAN, by Jeremy Camp. The song asks, “Would you take the place of this man? Would you take the nails from his hands?” Pretty powerful. I think it’s pretty safe we’d all say, no….like Peter denied him 3x. His own apostle. But, he doesn’t expect us to take his place. That’s what blows me away. He's already taken care of that for us. OK. I digress. Going back to the kids.

Children learn from what they see. Although I have to admit that sometimes going to church with the two little guys is overwhelming. Many times it is difficult juggling them and keeping them focused long enough for us to take in a few words of the liturgy, but it is something that we continue to do. First, because although we may miss an awful lot of what is said, we are “fed” each week with the Body & Blood of our Savior in the Eucharist. Nothing could replace that. Secondly, because each week that we go, although we think the kids are in their own little world, they are very observant. AJ is only a baby, but I really feel he knows “the routine”. When I see Kai kneeling, little hands with fingers interlaced, it makes up for all the chaos that surrounds my world. He may be just going thru the motions, but I can feel God’s presence surround us during those times, and I am so very thankful for having Christ in my life. He IS my rock and my fortress and I could not and would not want to live my life any other way. When things go bad, I have someone to turn to in which I could say, “Please, take this from me. I can no longer carry this weight.” AND HE DOES! When things are going well, I again, have someone to turn to and say, “Thank you Jesus, it is because of you that I rejoice.” Therefore, good or bad, He is always there for us. That is why he died on that cross, so that we could take our burdens to him and leave them there, at the foot of the cross, and lean on him for strength. He will fill us with that peace that surpasses all understanding, we just need to ask Him to.

The other day leaving church we had a lady and her husband come up to us and say, “Your son (speaking about Kai) is absolutely precious. We watch him all the time and it is amazing how he does the sign of the cross and how he bows and pays reverence as you cross before the altar.” We smiled and thanked her. But, as I was walking away, I had to stop and thank our Lord and His blessed Mother, because it is through them that we are able to teach our children to pay those respects in the Lord’s house. We can only be an example to our children of our own feelings and our respect for our God, but it is God himself, thru the Holy Spirit, that leads them to Him.

Anna Grace’s 2nd birthday is this Saturday, yet another affirmation for me during Holy Week that the Lord is so present in my life. I am completely filled with peace missing her birthday, because I know that our Blessed Mother has her wrapped in her mantle, and that St. Anne & St. Joaquin, our Lord’s grandparents, are surrounding her with love and grace….all this while our Savior himself commands his angels to watch over her with His blessings.

Last year our Holy Week was spent in China. We returned to the U.S. on Good Friday, and we proudly gave thanks, praise and worshipped our Lord while holding our two new sons on Easter Sunday. What an amazing Easter that was!

I pray that each of you reflect this week on all that we have, all that He has given us, and all that He went through for us. As we are led to Good Friday, the Passion of our Lord, may we take the time to thank Him for his sacrifice, but mostly my prayers are that may you all rejoice in His resurrection on Easter Sunday as we glorify Him for keeping His promises and rising from the dead so that we could all have eternal life. The most incredible gift we could ever receive! Thank you, again, Lord, for being the center of my life….of our lives!

Happy Easter, my friends!

In His Name… The Bombardier Family


HE IS RISEN INDEED!

Now after the Sabbath, as it began to dawn toward the first day of the week, Mary Magdalene and the other Mary came to look at the grave.
And behold, a severe earthquake had occurred, for an angel of the Lord descended from heaven and came and rolled away the stone and sat upon it.
And his appearance was like lightning, and his clothing as white as snow.
The guards shook for fear of him and became like dead men.
The angel said to the women, "Do not be afraid; for I know that you are looking for Jesus who has been crucified.
"He is not here, for He has risen, just as He said." Matthew 28:2-6

Wednesday, April 04, 2007

If life were a game.....

A time of celebration!

Last night the family got together and we all headed out to the local Chinese restaurant to celebrate Kai's 1st Forever Family Day! He was so cute dressed in his Chinese outfit and was beyond excited that this time the party was for him and not AJ! heh. We had a great time!!

I also want to thank all of you that wrote to us congratulating our little guy on his first anniversary. It was very heartwarming to read all of your well wishes and sweet words to our family. I printed them out and am putting them in his lifebook!

Blessings to all and enjoy the pictures and video clips! (Remember to click the red "X" next to the address bar to remove the background sound).








Monday, April 02, 2007

Little Emperor...Happy 1st Forever Family Day!


Kai,

You have grown in the past year into a little boy from that toddler with the baby ways that we first held. You are confident, happy, assertive, compassionate, sweet, loving and filled with a zest for life that has no boundaries. You love your family and we are so thankful that your little heart is now able to fully trust and is secure in knowing that we are indeed forever yours, as you are forever ours. You have filled our hearts with an abundance of love to the likes that we could never have imagined. We are honored and privileged to be your forever family. We ask the Lord to watch over you always. Happy 1st Forever Family Day, Kai!!!! We love you so very much!
Mama & Daddy

Before I write about how special today is, I have to start by thanking our Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ, for making his words in James 1:27 come alive in our lives. “Pure religion and undefiled before God and the Father is this, to care for the fatherless and widows in their affliction, and to keep himself unspotted from the world.”

We try so very hard to live up to His expectations, and I am sure we fail, probably daily. But we know He is a loving and merciful God and regardless of our faults and our weaknesses, He continues to shower us with blessings. Today we celebrate the first anniversary of one of those huge blessings.

A year ago today, was a day that we will forever be thankful for. Scott, my Mom, Amanda and I walked into a tall office building in the city of Hangzhou in the Zhejiang province, just minutes before 9 am. We were told before entering that we had to climb 6 flights of stairs where the babies were waiting. As we entered thru the front doors of the building, there standing with his nanny, was one of the most precious gifts I have ever received in my life. To this day, I am filled with shivers down my spine thinking of how God orchestrated such a perfect reunion of hearts.

Every pain and tear shed during our long arduous wait of almost three years melted away as I bent down and scooped this tiny blessing into my arms. His adorable little face was pale from the lack of sunshine from having been kept in a crib without any stimulation, yet his eyes were soulful and took in every movement that surrounded him. He shed no tears and was so brave and courageous for his short 22 months of life. He just intensely observed everything around him. Half frightened and half in awe of the complete strangers who were probably showing emotions he had rarely encountered, his little arms slowly wrapped around my body.

The moment I had envisioned and played out in my mind over and over again had arrived. We had traveled half way around the world for this blessing. And here it was. This was my son, our son. That first moment I held him, took us to a place where we were the only two human beings on this planet, and a moment that will live forever in my heart and mind. He molded himself into our arms as we left that Civil Affairs office that sunny April day and has never looked back.

There was so much that I looked forward to teaching Kai prior to our arriving in his birth country, yet, the Lord in His glorious awesomeness has humbled not only me, but so many around us and has again shown us that He wants us to come to him as a little child, the way that Kai came to us. We have learned so much from Kai. So much more than what we could have taught him.

He has taught us humility and humbleness. He came from an orphanage completely stark of toys, nutrition and everything we take for granted; yet he openly and lovingly gives of whatever it is he has, to others.

He has taught us to love unconditionally. It hasn’t been an easy road, yet it is one that I would do over and over and over again to feel the love that this little boy gives. The depths of his appreciation for small signs of affection like being told “I love you” or being given a hug is unexplainable. When these moments occur, and they occur often, he stops what he’s doing and smiles. The glimmer in his beautiful, almond-shaped eyes reflect every feeling that has swollen my heart to overflowing. He has taught us to love from the soul. He has been so brave in allowing us to one-by-one knock down that wall of protection that he had built for fear of being abandoned again. Now a year later, that wall has crumbled. There are only fields and fields of open space waiting to be filled with immeasurable amounts of love from his family.

He has taught us the importance of family. Something that for the first 22 months of his life he never had, yet he came into our lives and showed us each how important it is to have a family and how much we learn and offer to each family member by just being there. He has made each of us an integral part of his life.

He has taught us the virtue of patience. His speech is severely delayed, yet he speaks 1000 words without uttering a sound. He can fill a room with smiles and have complete strangers carry full conversations with him. He has a spirit that soars and an aura that fills those around him with amazement and hope.

I was so concerned in the beginning about all of those “firsts” that I had missed in his life. Yet, he was truly a baby in a toddler’s body. His need to be held, loved, nurtured, cared for, fed, were the needs of a newborn. I didn’t miss any first, because everything in his life was and still, a year later, is very new. One of the most poignant moments in our first year together, was the first time he saw rain. Something we take so for granted and try to run from many times. Yet, it was something that he allowed me to see as if I were seeing it for the first time myself. We both ended up standing in the midst of a downpour, my tears blending with raindrops, as we stood in total awe of one God’s miracles happening right before our eyes. A miracle I never even thought about until I experienced it with Kai for the first time.

I was concerned about all of the losses in his life when he came to live with us, but he’s taught us that those losses truly are just stepping-stones to all that we have gained. He came to us only with the clothes on his back, but yet he has filled our lives to capacity with wonder, amazement, and a God-given charm that we could only thank the Lord and his biological parents for.


Thank you Lord for giving us one of the greatest gifts we have ever been blessed to have, our son, Adrian Wen Kai Bombardier.

Scott & Ohilda
Very Proud Parents to 6 beautiful children and one more precious daughter on the way!

Click here to read our journal entry and see more pictures of that first moment together.